For some, finding your voice, the courage to speak up about the things that matter to you the most can be difficult. Truth be told, I’ve often admired those that it seemingly comes so natural to. I’m almost thirty years old and I’m just now arriving at the place where I feel like I’m finding mine.
Being the laid back introvert that I am, I’ve found it extremely difficult at times to verbally let people know how I feel about certain issues. Always the peace keeper, I usually go with the flow unless it’s something that really tugs on my spirit. In those instances, the end result has made it even more difficult. I assume it’s because people are so used to me being nice that they either fail to take me seriously or act as if I’m not entitled to certain reactions.
In recent conversations with a dear friend, I found myself being open, laying it all on the line after being tired of carrying the weight of my frustration about a particular matter between us and somehow, what I thought could be a good old-fashioned ‘vent and move forward’ type of conversation turned into one where I felt completely misunderstood and under valued. By the end of the night, my nice girl complex went into overdrive and I began to feel guilty for the feelings I’d been having let alone attempting to discuss them. I wanted to crawl back into my shell and pretend I never said anything at all.
As a result, I’ve realized not only the importance of finding your voice but the added importance of sticking to it. In the past, there have been several occasions where I’ve spoken my mind about something only to have allowed the responses of others to make me put those feelings on the back burner. But at the end of the day, you can’t control how people will respond to what you have to say. Your thoughts won’t always be understood as you would like them to be and your feelings won’t always be taken into consideration. However, one thing remains the same. The peace that comes with finding your voice and sticking to it.
A Work In Progress!